As for the rest of you. Some of the things you have mentioned I do not even think are me. Ticker I never "hide in the apc" to deploy without permission. To do so is a server rule break and I would have been noted long ago about it. In fact I rarely deploy as a doctor at all, thus all the "arrests" everyone is discussing. The only occasion I can recall is one where the CMO woke up late after I was already deploying, and we got into an argument over a misunderstanding.
The rest are all things like the "shoving" where Kryth got so upset he player reported me and the report was to go our separate ways. It's another misunderstanding that you can read more about on the report itself (which you threatened to shoot me over btw).
Katskan your comment is noted but not productive. Again if I was technically incompetent there would be a note about it. If I continually broke server rules I would be banned. My notes are 5-6 months apart despite my continual play.
I am sorry if anything I did ever upset you. I don't mean to unless I am playing mp.
Let me refocus.
The original argument for my denial was primarily "we need more time to distance from Felix" Its now been 20 months
The next argument was "stop getting in trouble". My notes are 5 months apart and even council admitted they are dumb. So that's done.
The next rejection is now "you are too silly and we are concerned about you being it on synth".
Maybe my argument was unclear. I want to play silly on marine, and serious on synth. If you all think I am going to be silly like this on my new synth, there's no chance. I am barely going to play them. I am not risking being delisted again.
My fear is that one of the things I was offered was possibly be let back on with a severe warning, with a one strike and your out. Though I appreciate this, what I am afraid will happen is that I will get accepted; do something goofy on marine, then have that be used as the basis to removal from the list. I would rather be accepted with this known. Because I like to play silly.
Although disappointing, I guess a takeaway on this app is that I will be toning it all down; even if I dont get the list. Some of you dont like me, and I don't like you, and I dont care. Others it is disappointing to be viewed negatively by you. In particular Brad, Phelan, Nuggets, Nunk, and Misty (not just these). Whom I have enjoyed playing with in the past.
I admit I am a clown; but part of that is I want everyone to have fun. I want to keep rounds interesting. But if this many people view what I do closer to grief..maybe I am closer to the line than I want to be.