It's more so... I wonder how people get by, I love the people I'm close with so far but I always worry about upsetting everyone, A lot honestly. I want to do my best and when I was starting out and fresh to a lot of different roles even after a lot of time I found myself crying because I thought people were mad at me. I come from a .... less than nice server elsewhere so maybe it's just ingrained in me at this point? I've been told not to care or worry for a variety of reasons but funny spess man game is... a bigger one, even if I get it I just like seeing people happy. Honestly I know I'm not the most robust and any FF incident is usually followed by me screaming "OH GOD I A AM A FUCKING RETARD" but I have a feeling that one isn't just me. Still I like the support aspect at this point a whole lot more, the few times people have noticed me they genuinely seemed to enjoy that I helped them. and... Maybe I should stay leaning towards that? I dunno, I'm honestly finding Support and MP to be the best so far.
And I know, MP bad. Don't have to say it. You will, but you don't have to.