Don't know how to start this off but I guess I'll just type down whatever pops up in my head.
So I've been busy for the last few months and rarely got time for a few games of Colonial Marines 13, which I consider
the best Space Station 13 I've played because it introduced me to a community that I'd get most comfy with among all the other Space Station 13 servers out there (sorry Bagil Station
).
I like the rep I've built up, the thought of some players who loved playing alongside me, even coming to a point where one guy DM'd me just to say that I'm one of his favorite guys is just straight-up heartwarming (you know who you are, bless u my dude). I only played for the fun times, so whether I was winning or losing the fight, it didn't really matter a lot to me, as long as I had fun along the way and didn't harm other players' gameplay because of the fun I had.
So I decided to hop on the game to just let out some steam and relieve myself of stress that I've been building up, and instead of that I got myself a temporary ban for a month, which I have brought upon myself and I won't complain about it much. Well, I'll be honest but I do feel a bit bummed out from it, but I'll just drop it there and not take it any further now.
Judging from how really my life is right now from work alone and just paying my sister's tuition, I don't think I can get myself anything much to relieve me of all this grimy, slimy stress aside from, I don't know, other hobbies other than sitting in front of the computer? I mean the thought that I'm working to help my sister finish her college is already comforting enough, but this looks like it's going to be a really,
really long while before she actually finishes, and until then, I won't really be able to play around with the computer.
I know this is just a temporary ban that only lasts a month, but really though, I don't think I would even play much after my ban gets lifted, hell, will I even play? Maybe? Probably for just one short game, or hopefully a couple, just to check out how are the boys are going and ring up the staff for a shitpost for a good giggle I guess, but to be frank, I don't know myself if I will even get the time to do these, I just
hope I will.
I've said earlier in the Discord last-round-chat channel that there are less communities to worry about, but I want to take that back and say that this community really matters a lot to me, no matter how shitty or blessed it could be, it is one of the communities I've grown up in, and one of the communities that I can say I am comfortable with, and I can't say this any prouder.
I'll miss playing with you guys, I've never had this much fun playing with anyone else who has the same vibes as I do. I don't know when I'll be back to play CM13 for a long while, but hopefully by the time I do come back, you guys are still playing and the game is still active and bustling with both new and old players.
Your frontline man who presses his
*warcry emote and rushes into the fight, regardless of who is in the front, may it be a newbie marine or a 16-foot MILF.
Your regular LRP-violator and ahelp shitposter.
The least sane-Deltoid.
Nathan '
EPIC' Harold, signing off.