I'm so depressed I can't even blink

[FearTheBlackout]

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[solidfury7]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z9kFf6Yodx0
My life is terrible. I'm about to fail Summer School, I can't get a job, and 99% of my day is just playing Colonial Marines instead of planning ahead. I haven't taken my medication for weeks without telling anyone. I won't have anywhere to live if I don't pull it together -- which I won't. I haven't had any social interaction or relationship with my family for years.

I'm just so done with it.

Start my freecodecamp.

Programming is an excellent route to get a career in, even when self taught.

Id also advise reading the 12 rules to life by Jordan Peterson, he raises some good points. (its available as an audiobook)

Discipline is the most important thing in your life. When you wake up follow a set pattern, make your bed, eat breakfast, brush your teeth, have a coffee and then study for an hour.

I'm still struggling to be disciplined but once its a habit it will stick. Even if you're spending one hour more studying than usual, you'll look back and realise how much further ahead in life you are than you were previously.

Surround yourself with those who wish to progress with you, not those who do nothing to improve and better yourself.

If you want to take action, drop me a dm, but don't just be someone who speaks about changing their life but is to lazy to do anything about it.

When will you demand the best from yourself.

[ThesoldierLLJK]

When you get a chance today, I want you to go look in the mirror. Look at the person looking back at you. Take a good look, in fact stare them down. Because when you look at the mirror that person is the one staring back at you. Everything you do they do, in fact if you try to slap that person, they slap you back. Throw a punch they throw a punch back. What this means is that your biggest opposition is life is only one thing, yourself. You can get slapped, get out of the way, or say screw you and push back.

Depending where you live there are people who want to help. If you live in the USA I suggest you make a phone call, there's always someone to talk too and who will listen, I promise you.
1-800-273-8255

[immaspaceninja]

just ask for a ban.
that should give you some time to pull your shit together.

[FearTheBlackout]

I apologize for this post.

I'm not in a healthy state of mind right now and stress led me to go public with my problems and grief on the server. It wasn't right of me to do that. I don't intend to go anywhere for the time being unless playing the game disrupts my person life too much.

EDIT: please have this locked since I'm not actually leaving the community